Thursday, March 10, 2011

Can't ask for too much

Today my Dad had an angiogram and is having a stint placed in his largest artery as I write.  Thank goodness.  As long as we hear a heart beat tomorrow, I will tell my family this weekend about the pregnancy.  Reminding them there is still three weeks left of the 1st trimester.  I have been sick, so very sick.  I am tired and I am losing hope with the house situation.  I don't want to be on the market anymore.   We have renewed our listing for 60 days and dropped the price of the house another $10,000.  If we don't get an offer that is acceptable at this point, I can't even imagine.  I really truly can't.
It is almost unbelievable we have put a date on the dream to end if in fact it must.  But that is what we have to do with a child on the way.  God will reveal his will.  I don't think I'm pushing it.  He is all-powerful, all-knowing and I almost let go of the dream now, thinking he could have made the miracle happen already if he wanted.  He could have.  But ....  placing a deadline was not my idea, it came from the agents of the builder, so this end date is part of the natural process. I feel like I have been asking for many prayers to be answered lately.  What I need to remind myself of, is that I am worthy.  A friend posted God is everything or God is nothing, the opposite of faith of fear, there is no in between.  My sponsor used to say that to me.  My thought...  God Is!

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