Still trying to keep up with life. I am caught up in my drape project for the nursery with an art framing project on the burner. I also have to pick my meals for fix and freezing. Then prepare of course. I can't believe we are having a baby in 47 days. I can't seem to find anything lately. I have lost my watch since Friday and pregnancy yoga DVD in them move. I am having chronic sciatic pain and there is too much to do when I should be loving on my baby boy who is about to lose his position as baby.
The dog is aging at a rapid rate as she is about to turn 13 in 6 weeks. I have mounting debt balance to pay before the baby comes and I want new boots and a few other things as well as getting some clothes ordered for the kids. I think I could lose my mind.
One day at at a time. I just keep taking one day at a time but each day I get to cross a bunch of stuff off the list, I realize how much stuff I forgot to add to the list in the first place.
Just thankful our family is healthy and growing.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
After 10 months we sold the house
So much has happened since last month. I have such highs and lows over selling our home that I couldn't bring myself to blog to about it. The negotiations for sale seemed more like being held hostage in the end. It was very discomforting. All the joy was taken when they bottom lined with "you have a sale if you come down another $1500. You can only imagine what we could using the $1500 for. We are almost that high in overages for the new house and I need to convince my husband to invest in retaining walls for landscaping. That along with the fence will need to keep the kids safe from the pond and the dog safe as well. This is part of the frustration from taking a $12000.00 loss from the first purchase agreement that fell through last fall.
The new house is coming along but we have beat down with meetings and phone calls making sure we have all the required meetings and details worked out. We are only a week away from scheduling the movers.
My pregnancy has been healthy. I haven't thrown up since the first day of the 17th week and a gag session about two days ago. I still think it's a boy, but I may have to eat crow on that one.
Everything seems so busy I hardly have time to put much thoughts down much less work through my thoughts. I am grateful and exhausted and happy. I am .
The new house is coming along but we have beat down with meetings and phone calls making sure we have all the required meetings and details worked out. We are only a week away from scheduling the movers.
My pregnancy has been healthy. I haven't thrown up since the first day of the 17th week and a gag session about two days ago. I still think it's a boy, but I may have to eat crow on that one.
Everything seems so busy I hardly have time to put much thoughts down much less work through my thoughts. I am grateful and exhausted and happy. I am .
Friday, March 18, 2011
Could it be any harder
Could the timing of having our house on the market be any worse? Yes, of course it could be after we have the baby or right before. However, this is not an easy road as it is. A 3 1/2 year old, who wipes boogers on the walls lately, has drawn on the wall and nearly flooded the toilet trying to wipe on her own. A 17 month old, who throws toys and can trash glass in one lick of the tongue or pat of the sticky snack hand. I've got a geriatric dog who can't climb in the back of the Mountaineer anymore and I myself have most-of-the-time sickness. It is so difficult to prep the house for a showing these days. They tear up any room I've already cleaned. It's just so challenging. We just have to sell this house asap.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Can't ask for too much
Today my Dad had an angiogram and is having a stint placed in his largest artery as I write. Thank goodness. As long as we hear a heart beat tomorrow, I will tell my family this weekend about the pregnancy. Reminding them there is still three weeks left of the 1st trimester. I have been sick, so very sick. I am tired and I am losing hope with the house situation. I don't want to be on the market anymore. We have renewed our listing for 60 days and dropped the price of the house another $10,000. If we don't get an offer that is acceptable at this point, I can't even imagine. I really truly can't.
It is almost unbelievable we have put a date on the dream to end if in fact it must. But that is what we have to do with a child on the way. God will reveal his will. I don't think I'm pushing it. He is all-powerful, all-knowing and I almost let go of the dream now, thinking he could have made the miracle happen already if he wanted. He could have. But .... placing a deadline was not my idea, it came from the agents of the builder, so this end date is part of the natural process. I feel like I have been asking for many prayers to be answered lately. What I need to remind myself of, is that I am worthy. A friend posted God is everything or God is nothing, the opposite of faith of fear, there is no in between. My sponsor used to say that to me. My thought... God Is!
It is almost unbelievable we have put a date on the dream to end if in fact it must. But that is what we have to do with a child on the way. God will reveal his will. I don't think I'm pushing it. He is all-powerful, all-knowing and I almost let go of the dream now, thinking he could have made the miracle happen already if he wanted. He could have. But .... placing a deadline was not my idea, it came from the agents of the builder, so this end date is part of the natural process. I feel like I have been asking for many prayers to be answered lately. What I need to remind myself of, is that I am worthy. A friend posted God is everything or God is nothing, the opposite of faith of fear, there is no in between. My sponsor used to say that to me. My thought... God Is!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I am that desperate
Shhh! We are five weeks and two days pregnant. Far too many people know this early on. My trainer at the club, my hygienist, my yoga instructor, a friend from MOPS I just couldn't lie to.
Morning sickness hasn't hit yet. Slight nausea though. With my first pregnancy, which was an invitro baby, I had no morning sickness and spontaneously miscarried. We didn't learn of this until the 11th week. Since then we have decided not to share our good news until the end of the first trimester. Now, I am remembering how much I dread morning or all day sickness but secretly panic when I don't get sick. I have totally fallen for the belief that if I'm not sick, it's not a strong pregnancy. So I wait and dread being sick. It's just the way it is for me. One must have misery to have also have good news.
I know that's broken thinking. It doesn't have to be that way. Somehow I just find comfort that everything will work out well in the end if we do have some misery. Blah. I really dislike that about myself.
Here's one for ya. Our house we be on the market for the eighth month as of the 19th. I am doing my very best to just trust God with the health of the pregnancy he blessed us with and working out the housing for us. I must remind myself we only listed because we thought it was God's will. Hmm. How troubling that I confuse myself over such things.
At this point I am desperate enough to bury St. Joseph upside down in the yard. Wait... what? I am no longer a practicing Catholic. I am a Jesus loving Christian, but do I pray to the saints or to my Lord. Don't answer, it's a rhetorical question. What I'm getting at is I'm just that desperate. I want to know that it will all work out and now I clearly have a dead line on it. I would like to be in the house by June so we can be settled and organized before the baby comes. Not just in, but settled and organized. I am an old Mom. I am celebrating my 39th birthday next month. I need almost as much rest as the baby and far more rest than my one and three year old. I'm so overjoyed at being pregnant I could cry. I am blessed, now if only I can trust with the same conviction.
Morning sickness hasn't hit yet. Slight nausea though. With my first pregnancy, which was an invitro baby, I had no morning sickness and spontaneously miscarried. We didn't learn of this until the 11th week. Since then we have decided not to share our good news until the end of the first trimester. Now, I am remembering how much I dread morning or all day sickness but secretly panic when I don't get sick. I have totally fallen for the belief that if I'm not sick, it's not a strong pregnancy. So I wait and dread being sick. It's just the way it is for me. One must have misery to have also have good news.
I know that's broken thinking. It doesn't have to be that way. Somehow I just find comfort that everything will work out well in the end if we do have some misery. Blah. I really dislike that about myself.
Here's one for ya. Our house we be on the market for the eighth month as of the 19th. I am doing my very best to just trust God with the health of the pregnancy he blessed us with and working out the housing for us. I must remind myself we only listed because we thought it was God's will. Hmm. How troubling that I confuse myself over such things.
At this point I am desperate enough to bury St. Joseph upside down in the yard. Wait... what? I am no longer a practicing Catholic. I am a Jesus loving Christian, but do I pray to the saints or to my Lord. Don't answer, it's a rhetorical question. What I'm getting at is I'm just that desperate. I want to know that it will all work out and now I clearly have a dead line on it. I would like to be in the house by June so we can be settled and organized before the baby comes. Not just in, but settled and organized. I am an old Mom. I am celebrating my 39th birthday next month. I need almost as much rest as the baby and far more rest than my one and three year old. I'm so overjoyed at being pregnant I could cry. I am blessed, now if only I can trust with the same conviction.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Nothing is really happening
January is not the month to have your home on the market. January 13th we had a call for a showing and they cancelled an hour and half before the showing time. January 18th we had a showing that turned out to be an Agent Preview. Today January 25 we had a showing scheduled for 5:15 and they cancelled at 1:30. This is the third major cleaning in three weeks. I wish so much I didn't feel like all the blinds needed to be dusted, walls washed, windows or glass in general washed, floors done, toilets and showers cleaned etc. So this time I only got through two thirds of the typical to do list. The sad part is I broke my poor daughters heart. She was looking forward to visiting with her cousins while I finished the last two hours of prepping for a catalog clean feel. She is so sad and that makes me sad. It's makes it feel like a busy showing month when really nothing is happening at all.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Six months on the MLS
Our house is still on the market. Last Fall the "Saturation period" for a home on the market was 7 months. I never thought that would be us, but lets see if we even meet that statistic. Our last showing last year was a "No Show" and our first showing of this year cancelled an hour and a half before the showing time. I guess we are ready for the real deal now. It was so nice to have a beautifully clean home for the showing I wasn't even upset they cancelled. I wasn't looking forward to organizing the new toys from Christmas but it all worked out.
I keep reminding myself God's timing is perfect. What I am confused about now is interest rates are rising and the home we planned to move into we won't be able to afford at a higher rate. The rates the very reason we began this journey at all. All the forecast for 2011 say "kiss the low rates goodbye, they are in the past and will be no more."
More will be revealed. Still hoping it all works out for us.
I keep reminding myself God's timing is perfect. What I am confused about now is interest rates are rising and the home we planned to move into we won't be able to afford at a higher rate. The rates the very reason we began this journey at all. All the forecast for 2011 say "kiss the low rates goodbye, they are in the past and will be no more."
More will be revealed. Still hoping it all works out for us.
New experiences for a new year
I'm watching my daughter scoop whipped topping into a bowl as I write. It seems a year ago, the hardest time of the day for me was 4-5 or while making dinner. This year it is the last hour before bedtime. It drives me crazy. The kids are wound up. They are hungry even after a good meal. They have on fresh jammies and insist on playing in every spot the dog left her hair behind, and I just want some time for me. (Excuse my pause as I get this kid some graham crackers for her whipped topping. LOL.)
I am excited to say we have made reservations for a hotel in Duluth and registered to attend our first homeschool conference. I have wanted to homeschool as long as I can remember. It must have been over 10 years ago that I was cutting the hair of a homeschool child and I couldn't help but think "This kid has a real personality" He laughed, had real conversation, didn't hide his eyes and wasn't sarcastic. He was genuine and pleasant. A kid that was different from the rest.
When my daughter was two I convinced my husband to attend an informational seminar. It was a three hour session. I have been praying about homeschooling our children since I wanted to have children. That is a long time considering we had four and a half years of infertility.
Now we are one step closer. For full disclosure, my husband has been against homeschooling from the beginning. I think mostly in fear or our children being deprived of what all the other kids have. After attending the first seminar he agreed I could homeschool the kids through third grade. Then after awhile, he took it back and said he never agreed to that.
We had a big conversation that included lots of tears from me and we agreed to go this conference. I must remind any readers if they don't know, my husband and I are in very different spiritual places. I want you to know that if you think you are so different from me and really you may be more like me than some other families following the same path.
I am excited to say we have made reservations for a hotel in Duluth and registered to attend our first homeschool conference. I have wanted to homeschool as long as I can remember. It must have been over 10 years ago that I was cutting the hair of a homeschool child and I couldn't help but think "This kid has a real personality" He laughed, had real conversation, didn't hide his eyes and wasn't sarcastic. He was genuine and pleasant. A kid that was different from the rest.
When my daughter was two I convinced my husband to attend an informational seminar. It was a three hour session. I have been praying about homeschooling our children since I wanted to have children. That is a long time considering we had four and a half years of infertility.
Now we are one step closer. For full disclosure, my husband has been against homeschooling from the beginning. I think mostly in fear or our children being deprived of what all the other kids have. After attending the first seminar he agreed I could homeschool the kids through third grade. Then after awhile, he took it back and said he never agreed to that.
We had a big conversation that included lots of tears from me and we agreed to go this conference. I must remind any readers if they don't know, my husband and I are in very different spiritual places. I want you to know that if you think you are so different from me and really you may be more like me than some other families following the same path.
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