There is always a breaking point.

There is always a breaking point, its just a matter of how far into misery or chaos or exhaustion we are willing to go. Yesterday I finally had a much needed moment with my creator. I finally surrendered. I have to say finally because the moment of peace, true peace, felt so rewarding I am sure it's been a while. It was so relieving. When I reflect on the recent past its hard for me know just when I started trying to rule the world but at some point I did. My husband was making comments about me being a control freak, I was on the phone with city planning, county planning, talking to three different developers, making my house plans, not sleeping and going insane.
Before we put the house on the market I was at peace, I was motivated, busy and tired, but I was confident that I was being guided and it was the right thing to do. Once we were on the market I was sleeping and doing a little complaining about the "hurry up and wait", but mostly things felt as they should. We even had a few showings.
Once I began looking at floor plans though, everything went crazy. Everything. The last week I has been the worst, then yesterday, I got humble. I got on my knees and said it all out loud to a power greater than myself. I surrendered my thoughts and reassured myself that God already knows who our buyer is, when our buyer will show, what we will sell for, where we will live, how many rooms, what the layout is, the location, and even how many children will the fill the house and if I will be homeschooling them. I was attempting to figure all of that out and then make it happen. HA! That is insane. So glad to have some peace. I guess until my next little control rampage. LOL