Since I don't have a therapist, last night I spewed to my brother for about 20 minutes and my Mother for about 30 minutes and prayed not nearly long enough, but long enough to conclude this...
We are thirty-two days on the market and my husband still haven't locked in a plan. We need a plan right? I have friends reminding me that building a house can destroy marriages (that is what happened with one of their sons) but I know any stressor can break a weak marriage. When my husband and I had built this house we weren't even married, we were taking on a wise financial investment. LOL! He told me when we listed our house he held a resentment at me for having to live in this town (my home town) and also for living in this house for twelve years when it was supposed to only be a starter home.
In all my righteousness, I explained had we not stayed we would have changed floor plans and ended up in a two story that was too small for us and we would be upside down in this economy and unable to make this move. Sharing this now, I think I should get off the pedestal.
At any rate, I want what I want and I want it now. I want the new construction home with the pass through pantry and square feett of the five bedroom so we can have four bedrooms and my husband can have his dang loft. Everyone needs to get something they want. HA!
We meet again today with the agent representing the builder to see if the house will work on the last lot we are even willing to consider. Let's see how it goes. More will be revealed and maybe by the end of the weekend we will know if we have an offer from the family that came back for a second viewing. The greatest gift, thanks to Mother and brother, I was able to remain calm last night and discuss our future plans, instead of explode like a volcano. At this time, I no longer need a therapist. I just need to thank my family.
32 days on the market, 6 first showings, 1 second showing, no future plans, awesome husband, awesome children, many blessings.
One side note, I was getting carried away with Feng Shui. About seven years ago my sister gave me this book. I liked the fact that it simplified decorating for me. Put certain colors here it will bring harmony and such. Well, I am easily influenced. I am. I was getting carried away thinking this home needed to fit the Bagua map for good prosperity, knowing it's not true. Sometimes...I disappoint myself. So I decided this is a false idol and looking for support to make the right decision I stumbled across a believers blog discussing just that. Thank goodness for Nick and his blog. I was encouraged to throw out the book once and for all, leaving all my destiny to the designer who already knows the full the plan and doesn't tell me I need a certain color in a certain space and a chaos in the garage creates disharmony. Dah. Just wanted to share I'm thankful for all the believers in my path.
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