My husband didn't get the info he wanted on the lot I liked. I don't love the lot by the way, it's just one of the limited full basement lots left out of four. It seems the most accommodating to young children.
Anyway, the search goes on and leads us to a township and therefore a neighboring town. Not bad, things could be worse. I am so tired of wondering and looking and researching. I am almost ready to settle for any existing home. Maybe that was his plan all along. Ha!
So much for Evergreen Academy. There is a house plan I like, I should just ask the designer if Gene could take a look at it and price it out for me. Maybe I should do that. Maybe I should go back to bed.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
I am in need of therapy
Since I don't have a therapist, last night I spewed to my brother for about 20 minutes and my Mother for about 30 minutes and prayed not nearly long enough, but long enough to conclude this...
We are thirty-two days on the market and my husband still haven't locked in a plan. We need a plan right? I have friends reminding me that building a house can destroy marriages (that is what happened with one of their sons) but I know any stressor can break a weak marriage. When my husband and I had built this house we weren't even married, we were taking on a wise financial investment. LOL! He told me when we listed our house he held a resentment at me for having to live in this town (my home town) and also for living in this house for twelve years when it was supposed to only be a starter home.
In all my righteousness, I explained had we not stayed we would have changed floor plans and ended up in a two story that was too small for us and we would be upside down in this economy and unable to make this move. Sharing this now, I think I should get off the pedestal.
At any rate, I want what I want and I want it now. I want the new construction home with the pass through pantry and square feett of the five bedroom so we can have four bedrooms and my husband can have his dang loft. Everyone needs to get something they want. HA!
We meet again today with the agent representing the builder to see if the house will work on the last lot we are even willing to consider. Let's see how it goes. More will be revealed and maybe by the end of the weekend we will know if we have an offer from the family that came back for a second viewing. The greatest gift, thanks to Mother and brother, I was able to remain calm last night and discuss our future plans, instead of explode like a volcano. At this time, I no longer need a therapist. I just need to thank my family.
32 days on the market, 6 first showings, 1 second showing, no future plans, awesome husband, awesome children, many blessings.
One side note, I was getting carried away with Feng Shui. About seven years ago my sister gave me this book. I liked the fact that it simplified decorating for me. Put certain colors here it will bring harmony and such. Well, I am easily influenced. I am. I was getting carried away thinking this home needed to fit the Bagua map for good prosperity, knowing it's not true. Sometimes...I disappoint myself. So I decided this is a false idol and looking for support to make the right decision I stumbled across a believers blog discussing just that. Thank goodness for Nick and his blog. I was encouraged to throw out the book once and for all, leaving all my destiny to the designer who already knows the full the plan and doesn't tell me I need a certain color in a certain space and a chaos in the garage creates disharmony. Dah. Just wanted to share I'm thankful for all the believers in my path.
We are thirty-two days on the market and my husband still haven't locked in a plan. We need a plan right? I have friends reminding me that building a house can destroy marriages (that is what happened with one of their sons) but I know any stressor can break a weak marriage. When my husband and I had built this house we weren't even married, we were taking on a wise financial investment. LOL! He told me when we listed our house he held a resentment at me for having to live in this town (my home town) and also for living in this house for twelve years when it was supposed to only be a starter home.
In all my righteousness, I explained had we not stayed we would have changed floor plans and ended up in a two story that was too small for us and we would be upside down in this economy and unable to make this move. Sharing this now, I think I should get off the pedestal.
At any rate, I want what I want and I want it now. I want the new construction home with the pass through pantry and square feett of the five bedroom so we can have four bedrooms and my husband can have his dang loft. Everyone needs to get something they want. HA!
We meet again today with the agent representing the builder to see if the house will work on the last lot we are even willing to consider. Let's see how it goes. More will be revealed and maybe by the end of the weekend we will know if we have an offer from the family that came back for a second viewing. The greatest gift, thanks to Mother and brother, I was able to remain calm last night and discuss our future plans, instead of explode like a volcano. At this time, I no longer need a therapist. I just need to thank my family.
32 days on the market, 6 first showings, 1 second showing, no future plans, awesome husband, awesome children, many blessings.
One side note, I was getting carried away with Feng Shui. About seven years ago my sister gave me this book. I liked the fact that it simplified decorating for me. Put certain colors here it will bring harmony and such. Well, I am easily influenced. I am. I was getting carried away thinking this home needed to fit the Bagua map for good prosperity, knowing it's not true. Sometimes...I disappoint myself. So I decided this is a false idol and looking for support to make the right decision I stumbled across a believers blog discussing just that. Thank goodness for Nick and his blog. I was encouraged to throw out the book once and for all, leaving all my destiny to the designer who already knows the full the plan and doesn't tell me I need a certain color in a certain space and a chaos in the garage creates disharmony. Dah. Just wanted to share I'm thankful for all the believers in my path.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
There is always a breaking point.
There is always a breaking point, its just a matter of how far into misery or chaos or exhaustion we are willing to go. Yesterday I finally had a much needed moment with my creator. I finally surrendered. I have to say finally because the moment of peace, true peace, felt so rewarding I am sure it's been a while. It was so relieving. When I reflect on the recent past its hard for me know just when I started trying to rule the world but at some point I did. My husband was making comments about me being a control freak, I was on the phone with city planning, county planning, talking to three different developers, making my house plans, not sleeping and going insane.
Before we put the house on the market I was at peace, I was motivated, busy and tired, but I was confident that I was being guided and it was the right thing to do. Once we were on the market I was sleeping and doing a little complaining about the "hurry up and wait", but mostly things felt as they should. We even had a few showings.
Once I began looking at floor plans though, everything went crazy. Everything. The last week I has been the worst, then yesterday, I got humble. I got on my knees and said it all out loud to a power greater than myself. I surrendered my thoughts and reassured myself that God already knows who our buyer is, when our buyer will show, what we will sell for, where we will live, how many rooms, what the layout is, the location, and even how many children will the fill the house and if I will be homeschooling them. I was attempting to figure all of that out and then make it happen. HA! That is insane. So glad to have some peace. I guess until my next little control rampage. LOL
Before we put the house on the market I was at peace, I was motivated, busy and tired, but I was confident that I was being guided and it was the right thing to do. Once we were on the market I was sleeping and doing a little complaining about the "hurry up and wait", but mostly things felt as they should. We even had a few showings.
Once I began looking at floor plans though, everything went crazy. Everything. The last week I has been the worst, then yesterday, I got humble. I got on my knees and said it all out loud to a power greater than myself. I surrendered my thoughts and reassured myself that God already knows who our buyer is, when our buyer will show, what we will sell for, where we will live, how many rooms, what the layout is, the location, and even how many children will the fill the house and if I will be homeschooling them. I was attempting to figure all of that out and then make it happen. HA! That is insane. So glad to have some peace. I guess until my next little control rampage. LOL
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