I can see my marriage crumble before my eyes. Trying to determine what type of home we would move into is going to be the end of us. In twenty minutes time all he has done is tell me what kind of house we are going to get and if I want something else I have a problem. He has insulted me, called me names and raised his voice without even hearing what I would like in a home. I am home with the kids, I work out of the home and he is deciding what we need in a home.
This sucks. I would rather stay here in the home I love, with all my plants and neighbors I already know and all my comforts. This new home process is almost impossible anyway. Sell your home and hope you find a new home in your price range you like. What are the chances? I know God has a plan for us but I haven't given enough prayer to this situation to feel lead.
If you build a home it would take a six months minimum to get into it. Renting for any amount of time and moving twice all sees so senseless.
New home ~ not today. We just replaced a whole bunch of appliances anyway. Now the garage door opener needs to be replaced. Once we replaced all of it nothing should break for a long time anyway.
There is nothing exciting or so great about this process. Nothing.
About Me
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- I see myself as a novice gardener, though I may be further along than that. I often ponder life and feel closer to God when gardening. I always longed for God, but it wasn't until I was 30 that I asked him to lead my life. I'm a wife, mother, daughter and sister. I volunteer, sometimes reluctantly, I do what I can to preserve the earth and remember God first in all things. I question societal norms and societal group conscious. Gardening is work, like life, and I see life lessons in garden work.
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